Prophecies Of Pendomonium

Anger...

                    Finally, some inspiration to talk about an irritation. Its been rather drab lately. Never would I have imagined I would be SO caught in the middle of one of the discrepancies to social strata which I so often bitch about. Its raw. Its harsh. Anger is something which I have had a firm reign on for many years of my life. However, recently, I feel that on a personal level as well as generally, anger is something that seems to be more and more expressive in nature. Personally, my control, upon careful analysis, was greatly diminished by those commanders who I had in BMT. This was a year ago. I ain't no saint. Those fellows would scream about nothing- im so sorry if you guys had  rifles rammed up your asses the night before and in this case the following scenario ceases to apply, oh and as a peice of advice layer on the rifle oil a little  more so that you don't scream like pussies for no apparent reason, i know abbrasions can be bitches. And cause of their screaming I wanna shout back wanting to know what the hell the problem is cause i doubt an unpolished boot can be the one big loophole the enemy finds in our defences. But, knowing better i scream in my head- i don't hear voices k. Finally, it breaks down my resistance, I become a pistol who fires off at random events that on hindsight don't seem that important anyway.

                    So what is so dangerous about this uncontrolled anger. Well, firstly, it does not allow you to think much. Given the fact that many of us hardly think anyway, or convince ourselves that we do- really guys its not working- this added reduction is definately not necessary. All we do is spew some verbal diarrhea that makes us feel orgasmic for about 3 seconds before we realise the weight of the words that we have just spoken. And it gets worse when these words injure others. It just reaches a scenario where both individuals feel bad. Not only must you kill the bugger, make sure you make him witness his own castration before he passes.It is painful.

                    The other problem is that getting angry is not independent. What you say shall reek havoc uponyou. Most of the times, we aint got many people who give the other cheek when you slap them. Most would impale you on your butt cheek. It just leads to the other party giving his view of the circumstances and most of the time i doubt this is to the advantage of the angery party. All that happens is that the other shows completely how little regard he has for the latter and this cycle just goes on till one stops or as I have seen many a time more effectively cries. Given the fact that I am an indian, the blood in my veins refutes discretion when I am angered and puts it on auto mode so basically you get a weapon of mass destruction(not my bloody breath).

                  Another problem associated with the anger is the failure of the relationship itself, be it temporary or permanent. We don't exactly take kindly to insults, be it intended or not, unless the insult was in Zulu or something. So, basically there is this lag period of proper ties as we try to size why the other had made such a comment and whether it was true or not. Of course since each of us is always right, the other person is a real bastard for  spewing malicious lies and he will be held in the wrong light until you either think this is all to childish(fat hopes) or the guy was just talking rubbish so let it be and get on with life. So, guys next time you wanna shoot your mouth think first. Wait, its a little difficult. Just dont talk for a bout a minute and then adress the damn issue. Its not such an important thing and if you do feel it is vital to bruise a persons ego there are better was to do it.               

                           

                     

I Don't Care...

          Lately, time is something which has been a rare commodity to me. Hence, neglect is a word that seems to have found a way of creeping into every aspect of my life. Nevertheless, i have been coming up with substantial excuses-I’m not proud of this- to which some have rebuked with a certain "I don't care."

                 So, what does I don’t care mean. I used to believe that it meant that the person probably does not give a shit about what ya do anyway cause as he claims, he doesn’t care. But lately, the word seems to mean something more. Its become like “Damn you, actually I wanna act like I don’t care but I care so much for you and the crap you do at this moment that if you propose to me now, ill except”. Somehow, this is not justifiably and accurate description of the situation but the point I hope gets through. It seems that people seem to care a lot more when they say they don’t and recently it’s been harder to quell the uncaring rather then the caring- something which theoretically should not be happening. But what the hell, even Bush got a second term.

                   Anyway, the irritating thing is how these people who supposedly say in your face that they don’t care actually consistently comment about the subject. Say, I tell you I don’t care for an individual. Do you go around commenting on how “beautiful her mustache is” or “how her nose hair adds serenity to her face”. Agreed, it is a dig against the person. But, does that not imply that you are caring too much then you had initially even claimed you were bothered to. It is a little irritating cause I would rather continue my actions but with the added knowledge that I am being judged by a person who is already seeing what I do negatively. This just contrives to makes every small action of the person to be bad. Picking one’s nose could be linked to concealing weapons of mass destruction.

                   The best part about the new clan of the uncaring is their ability to affect other’s attitude. If you did not care, then it would not make much sense to influence people on the issue right. It hardly seems the case that one can make another not care about something. .“ I don’t care about what he says. But don’t listen to him. He’s a bastard. But I don’t care.” That is more or less what is happening. Mr I don’t care has suddenly decided to become caring to society by spreading his concern on issues of general non-care, if there is such a thing. Please next time don’t say I don’t care, just say I’ll pretend not to care cause this ass plug is fitted too tight on me and I need some help to unplug it. Really, quit bothering about something you claim has never affected you. Most of these people instead behave like some cancer of the brain has occurred and they have to spew their verbal diarrhea in order to alleviate it. To those with this sudden syndrome sorry but I don’t really care about what you think. Really.

MC...

                  Thanks Shanker for your enlightening piece on mcs. As you guys knows, the mcs have developed into one of God's Boons to modern Society. Where can one peice of paper have the power to completely render your day free so that one can go shopping.. wait wait.. sorrry rest at home and recover from his serious ailment that is currently corroding his lungs into pulp. Somehow every mc is justified these days with syptoms that seem to rock the foundation of earth. I mean 2 days mc for sore throat. That is so correct. His tonsil must have been in such bad shape that if he opened his mouth it might have rolled out. Now, as much as the use of the mc has been looked at disapprovingly, a major reason it still holds its position is due to one factor, TRUST. This word be it in work, relationships wadever the case is vital and one cannot stress further on its importance. But , recently, ive seen a large rise on this trust being felled.

                  At work, the standard thing to do after a World Cup match( mind you at 3am), since we all are exposed to the intense radiations of the televisions screens, is to develop CFS(Compulsive Fever Syndrome). Hence one has to do the 'dreaded' job of reporting sick. So when does this become a menace and one's trust called into question. Most, of the times, being human beings, we would realise that another can become ill. Becoming ill 3 times a week may be normal in Mars, but sorry its a little hard to believe on earth. And worse still is the mentality of taking mcs to siam work. That is when one who places the trust in you completely loses it. Its important that one sticks his neck out when he takes a job if not the quality is gonna be zitch. Forget about this ideal. If ya do something make sure ya do it well if not ya gonna have to re-do it. Simple. No ones gonna lets you off with a shody job. And by taking this bloody mc, you are still gonna have to do your job eventually and worse still, its gonna be at the expense of your co-workers looking at ya like scum(which you probarbly already are). Basically, you are going to have to work in a situation where peple will push all work to you cause they will never feel you are an equal contributer( Though an extremely devout one when it comes to mcs).

                 Another thing which makes this entire scenario hilarious are the guys who take mc and then feel they are gonna get caught. Eh doofus, if ya know ya gonna get burnt, why put ya hand in the fire. They happily declare they are on mc. Then they squibble to even go out of their house to get dinner. Im talking about the basic necessities of living here, not watching movies all ar (That "illegal"). So if ya believe that people are keeping such a close watch on you it mean that obviously you are doing the valiant thing of skiving off right. Especially since you believe that you are important enough to be watched 24/7 by the someone( yes you are Singapore's Top Secret agent wannabes). Then why the hell do you wanna get off anyway. Might as well clear what you have to and do it such that people don't actually bother about you and are genuinely concerned about your helat. Don't get me wron here. I dont advocate mcing. But one cannot deny that once of twice there may have been that twinkling desire to abscond right. Make sure you always have the trust of your peers. It will take you far. No body is gonna report you for being chow keng if you work hard for them. And people do have brains, if you believe otherwise, to know that an injury cannot take a year to recover, unless ya have to regrow half your brain or something.

                  And just to add on to this point on brains, I think Shankar makes a valid point about taking an mc and dancing for a show. Ive, seen this like 3 times already. And dancing one week after coming off an mc does not count as well. As much a 'talented' dancer that ya may be, i aint thinkin ya gonna learn steps in a week and others can probarbly work that out. Yes, and be wary. People tend to get a litlle peeved when they have to do a job when they see their peers having a mini- holiday. So make sure you don't trust everythin around you that plainly. The downfall of many have been in the hands of misplaced faith and as they say "Assumption is the mother of all fuck-ups"

Till Next time! Prophesized at 2:37pm    

Leadership...

Aha today i had the great honour of a certain campmate telling me about what he felt was effective leadership.According to this person, the SAF is riddled with incompetent leaders who have no respect whatsoever for their men and are only intent on achieving personal glory. For the record, this guy is a private(boys and girls thats the lowest lifeforms in our army) and has gone to DB( army's equivalent of school- to the muggers just ignore this) twice for AWOL. So I can't exactly base alot upon his views cause basically he's the sort of person you blame everything on. If the camp burnt down and ma man wasn't even in camp, he would have still been blamed for the fire. Thats the level of responsibility he has carefully nurtured in the minds of his friends. Basically I feel that leadership is something that cannot be defined. There are so many variants in the methods but it still achieve the intended outcomes. As such I have no issue with the good men. But recently what I have come to realise is this new injection of wayang into leadership. It really helps alot when people lead with major eye power. "Come on men! lets move the tables to the dining hall. Ooh ah. We shall embrace the work we do for our nation" Right. Pretty nice way to embrace it by making groups of men carry tables while you 'supervise' them. Does it mean that with seniority you suffer muscle wastage in your limbs so those below you have to do work while you scream at them and urge them on. Sorry. The Americans would be more familiar with such people as cheerleaders. And sorry they are hot. Not some balding old man with his huge beer belly hanging over his belt(It is questionable if it indeed is a belt or another fold of fat). Really, Leadership is not about who makes the most noise. Its about how much you can influence and inspire your fellow comrades into completing a unified goal. Putting you in charge means that you are accountable for the end product. Not that you have weights attached to each ball so the most you can do is sit and curse. Oh and making noise standing arond does not help. Unless you intend to irritate other. Then your help is  doing much good. And remember that when you lead that there are always others who can think of something you have not. You ain't Socrates(Not the footballer) for sure so don't givr yourself too much credit. It does not mean you have to be smart to teach something. Experience is something which knowledge has its foundations is. People who have experience much more then your sore ass will definately be in a better position to do the job so give them a chance and open your damn ears. Also, to all those 'leaders' out there, don't take credit for something that your tiny brain would have never been able to generate. Its really the best way to make sure your followers spit into your food before giving it to you" ). Lead with your heart. And lead with style.

Till next time. Prophesized at 8:30pm. 

Soccer..

Many are already convinced that i can only find pessimistic content in my life, but i completely beg to differ. Today, I shall take a step out from my angst ridden world and show you guys that there are some issues which show that humanity does indeed have redemption. Some call it salvation. Others call it soccer. Women out there who feel that they wanna assault me with their shoes right at this point ,pls control yourselves for awhile. This ain't any discussion about tactics and why Robben looks like a grandfather at 20. No. It’s not about ronaldinho or even Kaka- Logesh sadly this is not about you. Its more about the people who play soccer, thought there are a few out there that believe they are the above mentioned. Now I don’t wanna grab credit from where it’s due so kudos to the VS guys and my very own NYJC-AJC-SRJC trinity who play soccer ( Siva you are not forgotten). You guys bring the game and the fun involved to a new level so stay with it. And for the record its takes skill to run sideways and dribble pass a person. Now before I start I just gotta say that the spectacle that this World Cup promised to be has in no way materialized. Mediocre games are so common and its just my luck that the games I never watch are the ones which produce 6 goals thrillers. Screw you Argentina. In all, I think that the top teams likeBrazil have really dug their own bloody graves by their joga bonito bullshit. Yes play ping pong with the post. But fail to get a shot on target for the first 45 minutes against the USA. See the Brazilian have been homing in on the right sort of finishing after all .I just hope that the knockout stages would see the top guns shifting out of first gear and lighting up the tournament. I’m sorry England Fans but your team does not fall into this category of top guns. It would have been so much different if Mr Erikson had been able to keep his gun in his pants and concentrate on the national team. Alas, it is but impossibility. Now back to the soccer boys of Singapore. I always have been used to playing the game in happiness and tranquility. Call it sissy soccer-since violence is the best showcase of manhood aint it boys-but at the end of the day we have a great game and go home feeling like the day could not have been any better. Yet recently, I have been exposed to soccer where tension is as thick as ever during game time. It’s really hilarious when every body is playing and just for a small push someone starts to scream like he has been stabbed and the guy is twisting the knife in his abdomen. Guys, just relax it’s a game to be enjoyed and the entire situation is a little gutted after that. Thankfully, most of our guys leave the game within the courts. The extremely funny idiots are those that go around about 2 years after a match sayin “ Wah he wrongly tackle me. I won’t leave him ar. If I see him confirm will wack!” Come on lar. You think this is some bloody life and death thing is it. The bloody Italian Mafia did not do shit to the Koreans when they won them in 2002 and our local wannabes are trying to massacre people over a tackle is it. And in all respect to a esteemed member of our soccer group, the great Logesh himself, I really respect the man for the amount of effort he puts in though he gets put down time and time again. Some would call it being shameless. I say keep the fighting spirit alive. You are indeed a true soldier of our Armed Forces. Oh and as a footnote, just remember that to call a team your own, to all you out there, you gotta play in it loves.

Till next time! Prophesized at

9:43pm

p.s. Sentill I am so glad I made your day allowing you to have a good laugh. All I want in life is to see you happy.

Standards...

So a new day, a new pile of bullshit.. Realli i'm so amazed by how daily someone gives me an entire new topic to break down and preach about- as some calls have suggested they may even entail bitching but live with it ok. As is blatantly obvious today's topic is about standards. So wad the hell is into this standards issue. Well, basically we are facing a time when people seem to be taking standards for granted. I really love to see the entire double standards scenario unfold before my eyes. Let us do a case study. Cousin of a certain someone disapproves of his cousin having a boyfriend. Disapproves as in im gonna wack the livin daylights out of the bastard who lays his fingers on my cousin . Best thing is he has a girl friend. So i get it. You can go around holding the hand of your little girly friend and feel so secure but if someone touches the hand of your cousin suddenly a hidden rage boils up which threathens to overwhelm you and lead you to violent destruction right. To whomever it may concern, go jerk off, it might help with the anger management. Why the hell do we have people preaching stuff which they find so hard to follow themselves. Think about all those times when your friends offered you advice when you were having some relationship problems. Power right. Make it seem as though they are in control of every situation and life is so easy. I mean just do this, this this wad. No problem. You will be fine. And then one day you find them in some corner cryin that they saw the  guy with another girl or somethin like that . You reminise about your own problem and then think why the hell they bothered councelling you in the first place if they can't even follow their own fuckin advice. Better still the concrete responses they give to why they are not doin wad they so called preached. Here's a liner for you guys. " Oh, its different lar. Its easy to talk for another person its not the same for yourself." Hello freak! could you have not thought about that when you gave your very own advice in the first place. And to some people, breaking up ain't a solution ya give to others for every freakin problem they face. You don't have the balls to do it(spare the ladys) so don't think the other does. If ya can be of help by analysing wad the problem is in the first place. Not jumping to a solution that would end up in torment. Its freakin stupid and shows a total lack of intellect since the other is more or less vunerable to the input that a 'trusted' pal gives. Even better is those who demand a standard they can never live up to. Its comedy at its best. You check out some hot girl and the guy says man your attached. Its wrong to check out other girls. I was unaware of the fact that with a relationship came temporary myopia. But nevermind i acept that. I mean i appreciate fidelity. The next second the guy is in some club grinding the hell out of some chick he barely knows and this person is attached also just for the record. So i basically get the drift. Its wrong to look at another girl in a relationship ut by all mean grope her ass and enjoy yourself while you close your eyes. I mean we can all happily follow the freakin ostrich's prnciple of if ya cant see it it cannot see you. No mention to groping. Hence deemed politically correct. Screw all of you who do this. Don't think people cannot see what goes on arond them. Be it in a friendship or relationship information is never too far away and all you do is shoot yourself in the leg by making baseless statements. It does not make ya a saint. It just makes ya a loser who cannot bear his true image so he has to make one up to give this amiable aura. Friendships wise i feel its even worse when friends expect things such as messaging them regularly when they hardly bother to do so themselves for example. Whats up with that. Oh your phone bill is too precious to waste the exorbidant 5 cents but the other party has to bear this extreme financial burden. Pls. Friendships are not based on your bloody sms. I could not even talk to a real friend for year but if hes been good ill be ther for him through thick and thin. A true dedication of such people to name some would be Jaga and DInesh. s As much as we jack the shit out of one another we have always been there to carry each another through it all. I have never and will never regret knowing this gentlemen and all you wannabes out there take a cue and learn from the best. And btw, to those who think otherwise, and i can gladly name a few, clean up your own shop first before you begin questioning my choices. Oh ya, and raise your bloody own standard before you question mine.

Till next time mates... Prophesized at 10:29pm...

Sorry..

To those who were misled into thinkin this is an apology for my first post, im realli sorry to dissapoint you. If you thought you were talked about in my first post, i feel a little guilt burning in your heart right now. And for the record, maybe i meant it. Maybe i didn't. And if ya smart enought thinkin bout comin back here for an apology you most probarbly are one of the sad souls who thinks that sorry is a word that liberates you of all sins. Is'nt it wierd that the majority of idiots these days pull a number on their friends and then think that sorry would cure the entire scenario. i'm SORRY, they are wrong. You don't go up to a person, stab them with a knife and while it juts out of their ass or something say, "Oh soo sorry, din know i was holding a knife. And i really think you have to go clean up the stain your blood is makin on the floor." People just think doing anything is fine and justified cause if it goes wrong, why the magic word sorry is there to redeem them. And in our  current times when we are so tolerent of each other, it even gives the other the ardent pleasure of taking a second jibe at another. What happened to our great parang wileding days where a problem is settled by killing the other bastard. Its so much simpler. The bastard gets the joy of bastarding you, and you get the joy of untangling his intestines. Perfect pair. No issues after that other then maybe a police case. The best comes from those who freakin make statements that question your very relationship with them. Most probable reply to a later questioning would be oh so sorry was a joke. The idea of jokes have taken a turn for the worse without my knowledge. Never knew it involved a stab in the heart. My idea of funny is seeing Logesh play soccer. To all you people who don't know this gem, pls do begin to look for his profile for entertainment levels in your life will just sky rocket. So rather then rely on using a stupid word, pls take the time to consider your freakin actions before you even do it. Foresight is a gift that humans only have. Don't depreciate your mental capability. And realli dont think that the sorry is gonna by any chance redeem you always cause we love to hit each other below the belt. Some would even consider this post to do so. Pls don't tink that this is in any way about you and the world does not revolve around ya as you frequently believe.  Sorry has just given many a false sense of security all this while. It should not be the way. It mars our very ability to sustain relations. So just go on with your lives and be a tad more aware of those around you. It would realli help. And dont forget that mistakes are meant to help ya learn, though it is quetionable what sort of things the person learns out of it

Till next time! Prophesized at 6:30pm.   

Friendships...

Goin on the basis that this is my first blog entry, I think it would be a great start to examine the kind of friendships which people preach these days. Personally, I feel that friendships are developed along the lines of trust between one another and involves giving as much as one takes. I dont think many would have much of an issue with this. I repeat I feel. Others don't apparently. Friendships have suddenly developed more of a suffocating aspect to them and i have seen this becoming more and more prevalent. The question that comes to my mind is what the hell to people expect out of their friendships? Realliu it is a little too much when someone demands that another answers the phone every single time as a show of friendship. Or the fact that one has to affirm the wishes of another all the time just to prove that he is a good friend. Basicaly, its too much of emotional baggage to lug around and i realli think that you can do without a friendship like that. Damn it. What the hell is the use of insisting ya want someone to call ya out anytime he has plans with others. You think ya his freakin appendage. Realli there has to be some self moderation from the demand one requires from a friendship. It aint a marraige. To all those out there with this misconception lose it. You aint doin yourself any favour. And on the issue of trust, I feel that many dont actually give a shit if they trust a person or not. Most want to lead their extremely happy lives carrying the balls of others just to potray a " i'm such a nice person" image. Thats the key problem. Image. It matters to your image who ya hang out with and why ya hang out with them. So where the hell does the damn trust come in. The best i heard yet is a friendship does not require trust to survive. SO what exactly is it supposed to survive on. Bastarding one another is it. The sadistic joy of sitting down with another pal and jackin the shit outta you peers. My my, arent all great friendships made in heaven. I heard a famous quote a couple of hours back which re emphasizes my point. It goes something like " Nowdays you cannot bastard people in peace". Im so sorry we intruded into the sanctimony of your bastarding world. Forgive me. Trust people aint something that apparates and is a freakin foundation. So when one questions this very trust what the hell is left. Ya wanna mend a broken glass. It ain't gonna work cause the cracks never fade. Of course ya can pretend it fades. Alot of people are good at it. Not to mention even better at diverting the attention from the matter at hand so as to make the breakage unimportant. As mentioned above, bastarding is an artform. And when it comes to this, what basis does one have to keep his word to someone who he cannot even see as his friend. Does it show that integrity is at stake. I doubt so. After losing ones trust no man is gonna give his left cheek to be slapped. Just carry on with your own life and learn. Thats what its all about right. We fuck up and then have to pick ourselves up. Move on to better friendships. Really, i respect the saying of a great man. " Screw you. I got enough friends. Much better then the shit hole that you sprouted from".

Till next time mates.. Prophecised at 12:50am.